Wow. It took like 30 tabs to get to the writing section. I forgot how to use a mouse. Trying something different.
It's been a while. I know no one reads this - they're probably all on SubStack or something, monetizing thoughts in virtual print for whatever reason. I should do that too, but I can't be bothered to start something anymore. Life is different than it was back in the day.
It's been a while - actually one day over ten years since my last post/article/word-vomit. Maybe I should set a timer and do this again in a decade, like some long Andy Kauffman gag. Probably not though - by then we'll be using implants to project thoughts into the ether. Well, younger people will.
So, updates. Kid two arrived a few years after the last post. Now I have same-but-different girls running my life, in small, medium, and regular sized. The medium kid is starting to wear her mom's shoes, so that's weird. She's definitely still a kid, but she's clearly in the vicinity of being a teenager, some barely pre-preteen. Kid two doesn't like math, but she's whip-smart and looking at her baby pictures makes me cry.
Jobs went awry. Left the university to be a community college administrator. It was a terrible fit and we bailed as soon as was possible. The job, the town, it all sucked. Moved to the valley to be near family, and then the rest of her family moved there too. No future for me in Academia, so I did a stint in construction before returning to HS teaching. Weird. Math this time. Again, didn't work well - I am NOT a good teacher. Or maybe I'm only a 'good' teacher, and never going to be a great teacher. Hard to work with high schoolers when you have a hard time with your editorial language control, and 'these kids these days are just different'. I liked the good days. Hated the bad days. The bad days made it impossible.
So now I'm at a state agency doing good work I'm good at, enjoy, and because I've been there for a few years I want to move on to the next big thing. No idea what that is, but I'm in code and data and have deep industry knowledge in an industry that doesn't have jobs in it. So it's either stay or pivot. Gonna regret whatever I choose regardless.
Anyway. I want to write more. I want to think more. I want to make more - good, products, and money. I don't know how to do that. 15 years of higher education, and my imposter syndrome is still strong.
Whatever happens, it'll be interesting. Or it could be. I don't know. We'll see in maybe ten years...
